Dear Old Friend;

Sorry it's been hard to communicate recently. Getting ahold of me can be challenging. Things have been crazy, and for some reason I seem to think it's easier to just not fill people in, rather than having to re-explain everything. It might not be right, but it's where I'm at. 

I have talk to a few guys recently and you honestly wouldn't like most of them. I mean I could tell you about them, but you are married and living life with your significant other. Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy for you. I'm just not in that place and I don't think I will be for a long time. 

Thank you for understanding. I know it's not easy for you to know that we just can't be the same friends we were, but at least we are moving forward somehow. It's been a long week, and that's why I am currently writings this. Since I haven't talked to you in a while I don't know how to tell you I need your help. Do you want me to just call? Or is that to formal? I don't want to worry you, but at the same time I don't know if you would even answer me.

I guess texting could work, but if honestly I would much rather see you face to face. Too bad you live twelve hours away. I mean if I left now I could be there for an early morning smoke with a cup of coffee :) I know you stopped smoking cigarettes, but maybe you could an exception for just this once (well maybe your wife would let you). 

Love,

-your forever smoking friend