Reinventing or reneging

It's been a day. It's been a little over 48 hrs since I decided I wanted to move to New York. And honestly I am terrified. Can I actually do this? It feels like a lonely idea. 

Imagine that. A city full of millions of people and moving there sounds lonely... And then there is the matter of timing. When do I go? After summer? Before? What will I be missing out on? What is the best weather for starting off in the city? Do I go after Christmas next year as my big move of the year? 

The things running through my head are making me second guess everything. Plus... What do I tell people at home? I am debating not telling them anything... 

Decisions, decisions. I wish I had a job where I could just live in New York half the year. Or travel there enough to have an apartment. Damnit! As an indesicive person I have realized this next year will probably be the most challenging year I have ever experienced. 

Well. I am headed to grab a beer with my friends. Here's to decisions. And running from them for the moment. 

Cheers.